reflections, week 26

a day late because I was on a mini vacation to Galena! the town was as charming and lovely as usual, but the gnats were wild and husband and I were both sickly at different times so most of our vacation was spent eating Culver’s and napping in our hotel room… and we regret nothing.

write something every day (except Shabbat). I’ve done some of this but, honestly, I’ve been drowning in academic writing and trying to prepare to work on my July project so I haven’t had as much time to write—and, you know what? that’s fine. I work multiple jobs and I’m going to grad school and I’ve written more this year than I ever have before. so I’m focusing on the wins and being kind to myself. 🙂

be better about money. this has remained pretty steady—I think I was particularly good about not buying all the things when we were in Galena—but I still think that summer’s going to be the real test of how well I am (or am not) doing with this! I get my last CPS paycheck on July 5th, so the “reduced income summer” season is inching closer and closer!

self-validate more. still working on being nice to myself and on keeping it steady—and, lately, I have validated myself a lot as a researcher while I work on my dissertation pre-proposal (since there isn’t really another expert for me to run every single little detail by—I’m becoming the expert, that’s the whole point!) and my scores for the pre-proposal components have reflected that success I thought I was having, so that’s really reassuring also. I want to self-validate but I also recognize that there’s nothing wrong with some external validation!

I’ve got some bullet journal reflections and some recipe recaps queued up, and I’m sure I’ll have some screaming posts about this summer, so I expect I’ll be a little more present over the next few weeks! (hopefully!)

reflections, week 25

trying to find a minute to send this along early since there’s so much stuff going on… the students’ term ends today so it’s a bit of a mad rush around here.

write something every day (except Shabbat). I’ve been really wrapped up in my academic writing for the past week, so I have not really written anything for myself. I am still hoping to do Camp NaNoWriMo next month to finish my project, so I’m hoping next month is better on this front!

be better about money. this has been okay so far, but the closer summer and its reduced income get, the more nervous I get! I won’t really know if my changes to my spending have made a big difference until the summer comes and I’ve got to survive with my lower salary and worse eating habits due to stress, haha.

self-validate more. I think I should have just phrased this as being kinder to myself this year because that’s really what I’ve been trying to do. I think I’m still doing okay on that front, but I also know it’s going to be harder this summer, so we’re going to have to stay posted.

alright, that’s the state of my life right now… see y’all next time!

reflections, week 24

trying to get my update in while dealing with back pain at work because that’s just the kind of life we’re living right now…

write something every day (except Shabbat). I’m sure we’re all (not) going to be surprised that I’m not doing this. In my defense, it turns out I did not make my monthly word count goal in March either, not just May, so maybe months-starting-with-M are my kryptonite this year. that said, I skipped last week’s updates and honestly haven’t written anything not academic in this whole month so far because I’m freaking out about my dissertation proposal—but I think I’m gonna try Camp NaNoWriMo again in July to finish the book I started in April (especially now that two agents have expressed interest in the premise). I’ve never queried before and I’m honestly terrified but I also know that I’ve got dreams I’d like to go after, so. *shrugs* we’ll see what happens. I did get back in the saddle with my bullet journal, though, so that’s exciting! I’m going to count it as progress and dream about the future, haha.

be better about money. this has been steady enough after the big spend-a-thon of the spring—which I knew was necessary and I did end up catching up on my payments and paying off a credit card, yay—but I am definitely still preeeeeetty nervous about the summer. we’ll see.

self-validate more. I actually had to practice this in the middle of the night Sunday-to-Monday when convincing myself that it was okay to take a day off because my back hurt too much to move. I also practiced it when I applied to a dream program and when I signed up for the comprehensive exam (!!!!!!!!!!)—and I did do both of the aforementioned things, so I’m doing decently well in this arena thus far.

until the next time! if my back pain subsides, I might get into some more baking shenanigans—so we’ll see if I can get a recipe recap up for y’all soon. 🙂